hi hi!

its 3 am and i'm still hyper! stupid medication. i'm on anti-biotics and it gives me random effects. either i sleep for insane long periods of time, or i don't sleep at all. its working wonders on my mind.

anyhow, i'm a bit down. just found out that one of the friends that i managed to get to church left. *sigh* why wasn't she in my cell group. i could see it coming already. but i didn't get her to stay... didn't care enough... didn't do enough. *sigh*

men are weak, the strength of men will fail - LOTR

oh well, surely there's a remedy. i will try. on a brighter note, i got my first pair of levis! wahahahah. i'm a happy singer. =)

didn't try hard enough

out.
posted by Mathiaus at 3:09 AM

i slept twenty hours yesterday.

withdrawal symptoms from lack of sleep. *lol*
posted by Mathiaus at 4:59 AM

it has come, and it has went

no more waking up reluctantly to head to Clementi to practice,

no more singing even though i'm butt-tired and losing my voice,

no more attending practices even though i'm the only one in my section and the rest don't turn up,

no more butterflies in my stomach whenever i go onto the stage,

no more icky gooey make-up on my face for 5 hours,

no more rushed changing schedules,

no more glaring yellow spotlight that hurt my eyes,

no more having food in a small room with a big bunch of people,

no more saying "hi"s and "wassup" in the Singapore Polytechnic Convention Centre,

no more dicussing of just how everything went and laughing at the little things,

no more gathering in that little backstage or stage to pray to God,

no more noisy chatter from the shepards and angels,

no more encouragements and "pat-on-the-back" for a well-done run-through of the play,

no more waiting excitedly at the side of the stage waiting for my scene,

no more... no more...

sigh, its over. bittersweet, this notion of a closure of things. everything new beginning comes from some other beginnings end... Christmas was well-spent, i miss everything.
posted by Mathiaus at 2:10 AM